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SELF-MOTIVATION
IN ESSENCE OF LIVING A FULFILLING LIFE,
SELF-MOTIVATION IS A DETERMINING FACTOR
IN SELF-SUCCESS. WITHOUT SELF-MOTIVATION,
A SELF IS CLEARLY WITHOUT TRUE UNDERSTANDING
OF SELF AND PURPOSE.

WITHIN THE DECISION TO BE SELF-MOTIVATED
ONE BECOMES CONSCIOUS OF ALL THEIR ABILITIES
AND THEIR POTENTIAL TO CHANGE SITUATIONS
BY THEIR OWN GRACE.

I AM MAKING A PROMISE THAT I WILL BE SELF-MOTIVATED
THEREFORE LIVE A FULFILLING LIFE.

THE ONLY ENEMY I MUST FEAR IS MYSELF.

AUGUST 1-2 2009
AMISSVILLE, VIRGINIA
FARM HOUSE/CAMP OUT/150 ACRES
10 KEGS + FOOD
UNLIMITED LIFE

discovering oneself may occur a multitude of times. visual thinking can be interrupted by static and depending on location. escapism seems like a short-term cure, but feels good enough to be worth it. running away will never fix anything, but neither will being idle and submissive. there are so many beautiful things in the world and lying to yourself to better self-esteem isn't such a bad idea. think and do. do and think. we are all struggling and scraping at the surfaces of what life is. proving to be an effective human being is useless and trite. ownership of actions and reactions and dealing with consequences properly is what makes a person either productive or destructive. none of us are consistently on one side of the spectrum. surviving is exciting and reaching for whatever it is one may want and desire should never be ridiculed or destroyed by anyone else. we should all seek adventure, but never acceptance. time is endless but we are not.

melancholy.
sometimes i wonder if this is all my fault.
confidence unstable, and when i see you
i really see you upside down.



belong
–verb (used without object)
1. to be in the relation of a member, adherent, inhabitant, etc. (usually fol. by to): He belongs to the Knights of Columbus.
2. to have the proper qualifications, esp. social qualifications, to be a member of a group: You don't belong in this club.
3. to be proper or due; be properly or appropriately placed, situated, etc.: Books belong in every home. This belongs on the shelf. He is a statesman who belongs among the great. —Verb phrase
4. belong to, a. to be the property of: The book belongs to her. b. to be a part or adjunct of: That cover belongs to this jar.


TAKE A CLOSE LOOK



HERE ALONE,
WE ARE ALL TOGETHER.
SLEEP CHILD, CREEP.
VAGUE MEMORIES
VALID POINTS
I WANTED EVERYTHING
WHEN I HAD NOTHING
I HAVE NOTHING
I WANT EVERYTHING
I AM SO HAPPY
I COULD EXPLODE
LIKE DIAMONDS AND GOLD
HOLD ME NOW, WE'RE GETTING CLOSER

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING. I CAN'T IMAGINE MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU.
YOU MADE ME WHO I AM TODAY. I THANK GOD EVERY DAY FOR YOU.
I OWE IT ALL TO YOU. YOU DID IT. ALL OF IT. IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF YOU.

JULY 15, 2009
WAITING IS HARD FOR ME TO DO. MENTAL GAMES IS WHAT I PLAY.
TODAY I THOUGHT A LOT ABOUT SELF-IMAGE.
I REALIZED THAT THERE IS NO MOTIVATION IN MY DESIRES.
THE ONLY PERSON I CAN FEAR NOW IS MYSELF.
I LIKE FEELING SPECIAL. IS THAT SO WRONG?
SHOP-UNTIL-YOU-DROP
I'M GLAD I AM BUILDING RELATIONS, BUT NEED TO NEVER FORGET ALREADY MADE TIES.
L8R




OUT OF SIGHT
OUT OF MIND




the world of dreams (WHERE THE RULES OF REALITY DO NOT APPLY),
is a world I rarely visit. I think the dream catcher in my room is too large,
it's sucking all of them out of my head!
it's too pretty to throw out, but I think it needs to put away.
I want my dreams back!

no one can make you feel inferior without your permission.



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TODAY: STUDYING COMBUSTIBLE DUST EXPLOSIONS
TOMORROW: NOSTALGIC ACTIVITIES
THE NEXT DAY: REVIVING THE DEAD BEFORE ALIVE
THE DAY AFTER THAT: "
" : "
RELATING TO HUMAN (OBJECTS) IS LIKE WAITING IN A LONG LINE TO GET
RAPED AND PILLAGED.
SOMETIMES I MAKE BAD CHOICES
SOMETIMES YOU MAKE BAD CHOICES
CHOICES RELATED TO IMPULSIVE NATURE CALLS FOR A MARTINI!
I HATE MARTINIS
DESPERATION ISN'T PRETTY, BUT MAYBE I'M NOT TRYING TO BE PRETTY.
DEAD
VIBES

DIE LIKE YOU LIVE:
ALL OF A SUDDEN


DEAD BEFORE ALIVE



DEATH = DEATH


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