Sometimes you have to come back to places and people to realize how far you've come. It can be beautiful and heart breaking all at the same time.

Sometimes you have to see people for who they are in order to move on to be who you are and it can be tough, but this is a necessary step to growing. It’s a choice to be stuck or unstuck.

Sometimes “friends” don't want to see you shine or be a part of an exchange of encouragement. Call it what it is, make a boundary. Ain't no body got time for that. Let them go.

Sometimes you have to have uncomfortable conversations. If you don't say what you need to, you may never get the chance to say anything again. It's not about the resolution, you may not say everything perfectly - it's about standing up for yourself and not being passive and it’s not about being right. It’s about being aware and using the gift of language. Words are magic.

Sometimes you have to realize your longest friend, isn't your best friend. Appreciate the lesson and love no matter what. Make new connections.

Sometimes you have to be the bigger person with the judgments and disrespect from others who really just hate themselves. And while you may sympathize and have compassion for them, you cannot surround yourself with that energy. It’s not yours to carry, you already got your own bullshit to work through.

Sometimes you won't have an external safe place to go to, but remember you've got your body and mind to hold you tenderly if you choose to let them.

Sometimes no one will understand how you feel, but that doesn't mean it's not real and true. Get it out, write shit down - having a journal is fucking awesome.

Sometimes you have to shift and change quickly to keep up with your dreams.

Sometimes you will have to trip, fall, and crumble over and over again before you can find your steady pace. Don’t allow the spectators to tell how to move, they don’t know what’s up.

Sometimes people will ask questions that are seemingly in care for you only to figure out something about themselves or gossip to others. You don't owe them shit. Maybe just listening is key in times like these or just simply walking away.

Sometimes you'll change your mind and that's okay. Embrace it, say it out loud, don't pretend you're not aware. Change is constant, don’t get weighed down by what once was or could have been.

Sometimes you may be the only one standing up for what you feel is right while others remain just sheep. Let them be sheep. You know you're a wolf and not a bad one, don't get it twisted.

Sometimes you won't have any money and can't play the game everyone else is playing. It’s okay, that shit comes and goes, but cannot determine who you are, ever.

Sometimes all you have is your kindness and mindfulness to give and that is much more than enough, but don't exhaust yourself with emotional vampires and belligerent soul suckers. They are real, trust me.
Sometimes people won't believe in your dreams, but don't worry about them. Remember, haters are people who gave up on their dreams, so why would you care about their opinions any way?

And all these sometimes are a part of just one time, one life, the one time you are breathing, capable of moving, thinking, and doing.

And with this one time of life, do whatever you need to to be true to yourself, especially in the face of fear, disrespect, betrayal, abuse, misunderstandings, because for all we know, this is your only time to be your authentic self. So be it!

BE YOURSELF with values and integrity. Use your grit, you are the driver of your life, not the passenger, not the victim, not the judge. No one else can determine who you are and what you will do with this one life of yours, that's up to you. It’s forever a work in progress. Don’t blame the world, it’s not against you.

"We go to our childhood home looking for something we lost. Our mouths drip with questions of how we became old suddenly and where our feeling of naivety went, but all we find is another place we no longer belong. Instead of answers we are filled with the sense that something we never thought to give name to, that we never took the time to acknowledge because we assumed it would always be with us, that it was in-fact a part of us, is gone." 

- Lora Mathis 
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Imagine that you awake early one morning overflowing with enthusiasm for the day. You feel good. You are happy and have plenty of energy to face the day. Then at breakfast, you have a big fight with your spouse, and a flood of emotion comes out. You get mad, and in the emotion of anger you spend a lot of personal power. After the fight, you feel drained, and you just want to go and cry. In fact, you feel so tired that you go to your room, collapse, and try to recover. You spend the day wrapped up in your emotions. You have no energy to keep going, and you just want to walk away from everything. 

Every day we awake with a certain amount of mental, emotional, and physical energy that we spend throughout the day. If we allow our emotions to deplete our energy, we have no energy to change our life or to give to others. 

The way you see the world will depend upon the emotions you are feeling. When you are angry, everything around you is wrong, nothing is right. You blame everything including the weather; whether it's raining or the sun is shining, nothing pleases you. When you are sad, everything around you is sad and makes you cry. You see the trees and you feel sad; you see the rain and everything looks so sad. Perhaps you feel vulnerable and have a need to protect yourself because you don't know in what moment someone will attack you. You do not trust anything or anyone around you. This is because you see the world with the eyes of fear!

Imagine that the human mind is the same as your skin. You can touch healthy skin and it feels wonderful. Your skin is made for perception and the sensation of touch is wonderful. Now imagine you have an injury and the skin gets cut and infected. If you touch the infected skin, it is going to hurt, so you try to cover and protect the skin. You will not enjoy being touched because it hurts. 

Now imagine that all humans have this skin disease. Nobody can touch each other because it is going to hurt. Everyone has wounds on their skin, so the infection is seen as normal, the pain is also considered normal; we believe we are supposed to be that way. 

Can you imagine how we would behave with each other if all humans in the world had this skin disease? Of course we would hardly ever hug each other because it would be too painful. So we would need to create a lot of distance between us. 

The human mind is exactly like this description of infected skin. Every human has an emotional body completely covered with infected wounds. Each would is infected with emotional poison - the poison of all the emotions that makes us suffer, such as hate, anger, envy, and sadness. An action of injustice opens a wound in the mind and we react with emotional poison because of the concepts and beliefs we have about injustice and what is fair. The mind is so wounded and full of poison by the process of domestication, that everyone describes the wounded mind as normal. This is considered normal, but I can tell you it is not normal. 

We have a dysfunctional dream of the planet, and humans are mentally sick with disease called fear. The symptoms of the disease are all the emotions that make humans suffer: anger, hate, sadness, envy, and betrayal. When the fear is too great, the reasoning mind begins to fail and we call this mental illness. Psychotic behavior occurs when the mind is so frightened and the wounds so painful, that it seems better to break contact with the outside world. 

If we can see our state of mind as a disease, we find there is a cure. We don't have to suffer any longer. First we need the truth to open the emotional wounds, take the poison out, and heal the wounds completely. How do we do this? We must forgive those we feel have wronged us, not because they deserve to be forgiven, but because we love our self so much we don't want to keep paying for the injustice. 

Forgiveness is the only way to heal. We can choose to forgive because we feel compassion for ourselves. We can let go of the resentment and declare, "That's enough! I will no longer be the big Judge that goes against myself. I will no longer beat myself up and abuse myself. I will no longer be the Victim." 

First, we need to forgive our parents, our brothers, our sisters, our friends, and God. Once you forgive God, you can finally forgive yourself. Once you forgive yourself, the self-rejection in your mind is over. Self-acceptance begins, and the self-love will grow so strong that you will finally accept yourself just the way you are. That's the beginning of the free human. Forgiveness is the key. 

You will know you have forgiven someone when you see them and you no longer have an emotional reaction. You will hear the name of the person and you will have no emotional reaction. When someone can touch what used to be a wound and it no longer hurts you, then you know you have truly forgiven. 

The truth is like a scalpel. The truth is painful, because it opens all of the wounds which are covered by lies so that we can be healed. These lies are what we call the denial system. It's a good thing we have the denial system, because it allows us to cover our wounds and still function. But once we no longer have any wounds or any poison, we don't need to lie anymore. We don't need the denial system, because a healthy mind, like healthy skin, can be touched without hurting. It's pleasurable for the mind to be touched when it is clean. 

The problem with most people is that they lose control of their emotions. It is the emotions that control the behavior of the human, not the human who controls the emotions. When we lose control we say things that we don't want to say, and do things that we don't want to do. This is why it is so important to be impeccable with our word and to become a spiritual warrior. We must learn to control the emotions so we have enough personal power to change our fear-based agreements, escape from hell, and create our own personal heaven. 

How are we to become a warrior? There are certain characteristics of the warrior that are nearly the same around the world. The warrior has awareness. That's very important. We are aware that we are at war, and the war in our minds requires discipline. Not the discipline of a solider, but the discipline of a warrior. Not the discipline from the outside to tell us what to do and what not to do, but the discipline to be ourselves, no matter what. 

The warrior has control. Not control over another human, but control over one's own emotions, control over one's own self. It is when we lose control that we repress the emotions, not when we are in control. The big difference between a warrior and a victim is that the victim represses, and the warrior refrains. Victims repress because they are afraid to show the emotions, afraid to say what they want to say. To refrain is not the same thing as repression. To refrain is tot hold the emotions and to express them in the right moment, not before, not later. That is why warriors are impeccable. They have completely control over their own emotions and therefore over their own behavior. 

A Toltec Wisdom Book : The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz