so I was like, fuck it - I'm gonna do what I want to do and then as soon as I started doing that - you know, doing what I want to do - it all just happened. it all happened from there. explosions. sirens going off. tsunamis. earthquakes. fires. all that shit just started to happen, just right after I started to do...what I wanted to do. then after all that, in that bliss of excitement of something uncontrolled, it all floated back down like a cloud. all just sitting on my face and shitting sweet white daises on my cheeks and sunshine's breeze. so, I guess, moral of the story is - I am just gonna do what I want to do, because like yeah - it's kind of cool.